Chapter 14
Those six words were enough to put chills down my spine and not the good kind of chills either. I was relatively inexperienced when it came to relationships. Pretty much all of my experience was second hand from what Ellie and June told me about their previous relationships.
They have both told me on numerous occasions that any conversation that starts with those words is bad. A few of their collective relationships have ended in that exact way. Was he going to walk me to some quiet spot in the nearby forest and reject me? Leaving me there alone and in pain curled up on the floor.
“Molly, why are you panicking?” Grayson asked.
We had only walked a few metres from the cafe. My half brother always said I was easy to read, I guess he must be right. I evidently didn’t have a sparkling career as an actress or poker player in my future.
‘No he can feel some of your emotions through the bond you idiot.’ Scarlett said.
‘Yes and now that you took back your rejection our bond is getting stronger.’ Jade said. She seemed far too happy for someone that might just be about to be rejected.
“I know what it means when someone says they need to talk. I know it isn’t good. I know it normally means that something bad is going to happen, like you leaving me.” I said.
“I wondered why you walked off like you trying to get away from me.” He said.
He took hold of my hands and turned me so I was facing him.
“It is nothing bad, I just need to know the answer to some questions that I have.” He said. He kept hold of one of my hands and started walking next to me again.
“So what do you want to know?” I asked.
“Firstly, are there any other men that you had a similar arrangement with that I need to know about.” He said.
“No. He is the only person I have ever been with.” I said. I felt embarrassed talking about this to my mate but he asked so I wanted to tell him everything.
“Good.” He said.
His response annoyed me a bit. Was he trying to say I should have saved myself for him? He is an alpha, how many she wolves must have thrown themselves at him over the years and how many of them did he share a bed with?Property belongs to Nôvel(D)r/ama.Org.
“How many women do I have to worry about?” I asked, even though I was dreading the answer. I got possessive thinking about the way all the women in our pack looked at Grayson, I couldn’t imagine how I would react knowing he slept with them all as well. I didn’t have the control over my wolf that Grayson did yet either. I was worried that one of them would say something causing Jade to take over and attack them.
“None.” He replied.
“What do you mean?” I asked.
“I have known that we were destined to be together for most of my life. It didn’t feel right to mess around with other women.” He said.
“When I turned eighteen it became impossible anyway. My alpha wolf wouldn’t have let me touch anyone other than his mate.” He added more quietly.
We were out of the busier areas now, just about to enter the forest but there were still a few people close by so we had to be careful to make sure we weren’t overheard.
“I didn’t know we were soulmates then though.” I said.
“I know. I don’t care about what you did before we got together. I just wish I didn’t have to find out like that.” He said.
“I know, I handled it poorly. The last few days have been a bit of a whirlwind and I am struggling to keep up with everything.” I said.
I sighed.
“When I say it like that it sounds like a pathetic excuse. It isn’t as though you have had an easy time over the last few days either. I should have warned you. I am sorry.” I said.
“That is ok but from now on can we just agree to be open and honest with each other, ok?” He asked.
I nodded my head enthusiastically until I realised there was something else I had been keeping from him. I bit my bottom l*p.
“There is something else that should probably tell you something about me. I am only half werewolf.” I said.
Now comes the hard part. Now I have to tell him that the other half of me is something that our kind has been brought up to hate. I had been dreading telling anyone about this half of myself ever since I found out about it.
‘Excuse me, I am glorious and you are lucky to have me.’ Scarlett said.
‘You know that isn’t what she meant. Just calm down.’ Jade said, defending me.
“You are half lycan.” Grayson said.
“How did you know? I haven’t told anyone about that.” I was shocked.
“As the future alpha of the pack I feel a connection to all the wolves in the pack. Your lycan is part of the pack too so I am connected to her.” He said.
“I didn’t know about that. Does that mean you can read my mind or something?” I asked.
I started to think over all the thoughts I had been having over the last few days. What if he could read some of the things I had been thinking about him and more specifically what I wanted to do with him. That would be embarrassing.
“No. It is more like I am aware of their presence.” He clarified. Phew.
“That sounds annoying.” I said.
My head sometimes feels crowded with a lyan and a werewolf in there, I couldn’t imagine being constantly aware of all the other wolves in my pack.
‘You love us really, don’t deny it.’ Jade said.
“It’s not really, most of the time I hardly notice it. My parents say that it is the moon goddesses way of making sure that alpha wolves are aware that their actions have consequences.” He said.
“I don’t understand.” I said.
“If we lose a pack member then we feel our connection to them break. It is hard to describe exactly what it feels like but when we mark each other you will feel it first hand.” He said.
He smiled at me but I think that had more to do with the idea of marking me than anything else.
“Ok. Well because I have a lycan and a werewolf there is a chance that I may have another mate.” I mumbled. I wasn’t looking forward to this conversation but there was no point putting it off any longer.
“The thought had crossed my mind.” He said. He was still smiling but his voice had lost its brightness.
“I mean it’s not as though we have a lot to do with lycans anyway so there is a good chance I won’t even meet them anyway.” I said.
‘Will you just stop trying to deprive me of my mate already.’ Scarlett complained.
“It’s ok, you can’t help being given two mates but I do have a couple of things I wouldn’t be able to cope with.” He said.
“What are they?” I asked.
“The first is you rejecting me to be with him. It was too painful the first time and I don’t want to ever feel that way again.” I nodded my head in agreement.
“The second is that I will not put up with him treating you badly. If he treats you as anything less than his princess I will challenge him.” He said.
“It isn’t a good idea to challenge a lycan, you know how dangerous they are.” I replied.
“Don’t underestimate an alpha trying to defend his mate.” He said.
He removed his hand from mine. He placed his hands on my h**s and pulled me towards him. I wrapped my arms around his waist and leaned in towards him. My lips were only a few centimetres away from his and I could feel his breath against my face. We were quite deep in the forest now and well away from any of the paths that people used. There wasn’t much chance of someone coming along and disturbing us.
“Did I ever apologise for rejecting you?” I said.
“No but that is ok.” He said.
“I don’t think so.” I said.
I bit into my bottom l*p as I moved my hands down till they reached the top of his jeans. I ran my fingers along the band of his jeans to the front and started to undo his belt.
“What are you doing?” He asked.
“Apologising.” I said as I unzipped his jeans and reached inside. He was already hard.
I got down on my knees in front of him. I looked up at his face as I pulled his member out of his boxers and licked the tip. I swirled my tongue around the tip then took him inside of my mouth. He closed his eyes and m****d.
He rested his hand on the back of my head as I slowly moved my head backward and forward. I moved my hands up so that I could pleasure him with my hands as well. He was much too large for me to fit all of him in my mouth at once.
I looked up at him, he was looking down at me. His breathing was heavy and he was biting his l*p to stop himself from crying out in pleasure. I was going to have to do something about that.
I pulled my head back so I only had the tip in my mouth and pleasured him with my tongue causing him to let out the m***s that he had been withholding from me. His h**s started to thrust and his breathing started to become more erratic as he got closer to his release.
“Oh goddess.” He screamed as he reached his peak. Spilling his load into my mouth and down my throat.