If Wishes were Horses
Hillary POV
Loukas and I left Hawaii that morning and arrived at Mecianda late at night. It was a long trip and I didn’t sleep a wink throughout the flight because I couldn’t stop thinking about Mr. Atins and how he had been so nice to me and treated me like his daughter. I had a short memory of him, but I couldn’t stop thinking about it.
If only I could spend more time with him.
When Loukas and I arrived at the airport, Rotimi had come to pick us up, and without wasting time, we headed to the hospital where Mr. Atins had died. “Are you okay?” Rotimi asked me as we made our way to the morgue to look at Mr. Atins.
“I am fine,” I managed to say, but I wasn’t. My voice sounded pretty weak, like I was in pain, which I truly was, and I couldn’t dispute that.
“You shouldn’t have announced Mr. Atins’ death to her,” Loukas scolded Rotimi. “He was like a father to her, and not only did that ruin her mood, it also ruined mine.”
“I am sorry about that, Hillary,” Rotimi apologized, and since I was too sad to reply to him, I forced myself to smile at him. “I never knew that his death would be a great shock to her. I truly apologize for that, “he bowed his head.
“That’s enough, Rotimi,” I told him and cleared my throat, stating that I was okay. “There is no need for you to feel that way because of what happened. Mr. Atins is already gone and we can only hope that everything else will be alright. ”
Rotimi nodded in response and didn’t say anything else. The three of us made our way to the morgue, and when we reached the entrance, we saw Aiden, Mr. Atins’s son, getting dragged by the doctors and nurses. He screamed, kicked, and struggled against them as he was pulled out of the morgue.
“No! He shouldn’t have died like that! ” Aiden screamed and tried to push the doctors holding him down. “He promised to stay with me until the end! He can’t just die like that without fulfilling his promise! ” Aiden lamented and slapped his forehead.
No one of us made a move to console him. We all stood and watched him as he continued crying and screaming. That was also how I felt when my father died and I wasn’t there to speak to him before he left me all alone. Tears trickled down my face as I thought about him. If only I could change the time and tell my father one thing: I’ll tell him how much I love him.
“We should console him!” I finally said after a moment of silence and watching as he didn’t stop screaming and crying.
“Let him cry until he is tired,” Loukas said. “He’ll get tired soon and forget about it.”
“He won’t forget about it because he regrets it,” I told him, and he turned to face me. “For Aiden to act like this, he must have regretted everything that he did when his father was alive, so I don’t blame him if he is acting this way.”
“Aiden! ” Loukas shouted his name.
All eyes, including Aiden’s, turned towards us. “Let him go,” Loukas said to the nurses and doctors. They didn’t answer at first, but Rotimi beckoned them to let go of Aiden. They let him go, watching him closely in case he tried to run in again but, Aiden didn’t move a bit and just stared at Loukas. “If you are feeling remorseful about what happened to your father, then stop acting like this would bring him back!”
“You have no idea of what you are saying!” Aiden shouted at him. “My father died because of me!” He hit his chest as he accused himself. “If I had not been scammed by those con artists, then I am sure that my father would still be alive by now!” Aiden continued hitting his chest as he cried. “It’s all my fault because I made that poor man suffer, and now that he is gone, whose fault is it if not mine? ”
“It’s not your fault!” I told him and tried to move closer to him, but he moved backward away from me.” I know you are hurting right now and you’ll keep blaming yourself for this, but you need to know that it’s not your fault! ”
“You talk as if you know anything!” Aiden chuckled and pointed towards the morgue. “You have no idea of what I am going through!” He sniffled and ran his hand through his hair. “I abandoned him for years without knowing that he had cancer!”
It was the same case with me because I didn’t have any idea that my father had cancer until it was too late. Listening to Aiden speak reminded me of my father, and I burst into tears as I thought about how pale he had looked when I had seen him on his deathbed.
“Now you are making my wife cry!” Loukas shouted at him.
“It’s not his fault.” I wiped the tears off my face and turned to face Loukas. “He is just hurting and I feel sorry for him because he has no one now except for us.” I cleared my throat and moved closer to Aiden. Grabbing his hand, I pulled him into a hug. “I am so sorry about your father.”
Aiden didn’t say anything and just let the tears on his face flow freely. He sobbed on my neck while I rubbed his back. “It’s going to be okay,” I told him. “It’s going to be fine,” I assured him, and he nodded in response.
I just wished that I could tell him that I was sorry for acting the way I did toward him. “I just hope that he will listen to me and wake up one last time,” Aiden sobbed.
“We all have that last wish that never comes true,” I said as I pulled away from the hug and looked him in the eyes.” It’s going to be okay,” I told him, and I pulled out a handkerchief from my purse. “Wipe your tears, Aiden. You are not alone anymore, “I assured him.
“What do you mean?” He asked.
I smiled at him. “Since your father had taken me as his daughter before his death, I am going to be your sister and I will always be with you forever.”
Aiden’s reaction to what I said was more tears. He buried his face in his hands as he burst into more tears. “I don’t deserve any of this.”
“You deserve much more,” I told him, turning to face Loukas. “You have my husband as your guardian now and you are in safe hands, I can assure you that,” I told him, and he nodded his head as he removed his hands from his face.
“Great!” Rotimi smiled at me as he wheeled Loukas towards us. “You did well and acted like the big sister he needed,” Rotimi commented and gave me a thumbs up like he always does.
I smiled at him and then turned my head towards Loukas, who still had a frown on his face. When our eyes met, I smiled at him, expecting that he’d do the same, but instead, I was met with his glaring eyes, not at me but at Aiden.
“Can we see your father?” Loukas asked.
That’s not what I expected him to say. I had expected him to console Aiden about his father’s death, but he acted like he didn’t care. As if something worse had happened to him in the past, which wasn’t a lie because Loukas had survived worse and he wasn’t the type to give a damn about other people’s pain.
“You may see my father,” Aiden replied, pointing to the morgue. “He is lying there,” he pointed inside.
“I’ll take you there,” one of the nurses said to Loukas.
“Very well then, take us there,” Loukas requested as he was wheeled into the morgue by Rotimi.
I took a deep breath when I saw Mr. Atins’s body and released it after a while. His handsome face had turned pale, and there was no life in them again. His red lips had become darker and Mr. Atins just lay lifeless, just like my father had been when he died. I sniffled when I thought about my father, and a lone tear escaped from my eyes.
“Are you okay?” Rotimi asked me.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .
I nodded in response. “I am just tired and I think I need a rest. We just arrived from a long trip.”
Loukas cleared his throat and nodded to my complaints. “We should leave,” he said and beckoned to Rotimi to wheel him out of the morgue.
Even though Loukas was trying to act like he was a strong man, I knew he was hurt, but his face didn’t show it because he was wearing his usual stern look. He wore that expression to hide his pains and how he truly felt, but I don’t blame him because it was the only way he could escape the cruel world around him.
Acting all tough was Loukas’s solace.