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Gianna’s POV
… Three Days Later…
I took a deep breath standing before the door to his room, then I raised up my right hand in a fist and was about to knock when I noticed the door was open. So I quietly entered, the room was dark.
We had all been discharged from the hospital three days back.
I looked around this dark room, everything was bathed in darkness. Windows were closed, curtains were drawn, everything was a mess. Things were broken and lying across the room.
At the corner of the room, he was sitting on a big chair, and was asleep. His head was resting on the border of the window. Oh my! He looked so sad.
I quietly walked towards him, he sensed my presence and began shouting.Published by Nôv'elD/rama.Org.
“I said get ou -“, he opened his eyes quickly but stopped as he looked and saw me standing there.
I flinched and lowered my gaze immediately.
“Gianna -“, his words came out like a whisper as his eyes brightened up. He tried to stand to hug me but he couldn’t.
He let out a low sad chuckle as he fell back on the chair.
“Ouchhh! I forgot. I am a useless mess now”, he laughed again as he threw his head backwards avoiding my gaze and turning at the ceiling.
“Why are you here Gianna? Did Lionel send you?” Greg asked, his gaze still fixed on the ceiling.
I swallowed hard.
“I… I came to be with you”, I said trying so hard to control my tears. He still had the same effect on me, no matter what, no matter the state, no matter the condition.
His eyes averted towards me and then to my flat tummy as he let out another chuckle. He smiled sadly as he stared back at me.
“I was actually waiting for you Gianna… come here”, he smiled.
I moved forward, now standing so close to him.
“Closer here”, he gestured as I sat on his lap shyly. I couldn’t tell why, but I knew I was still too shy around him.
“Look at me”, he gently held my chin and lifted it. Our eyes met.
Tears started gathering in my eyes as I looked at his state, he was not the Greg I knew.
He looked so pale. They were dark circles around his eyes, he looked haunted and lost, he looked weak.
“I look miserable, don’t I?” He smiled weakly.
I swallowed hard and didn’t answer a thing. I was just looking at his eyes. I never knew he was hiding so much pain behind those dark brown beautiful orbs of his.
He gently caressed my cheek as he smiled.
“Did I ever tell you? I love your innocent look? Your innocent look always speak the truth Gianna. I can see your heart through them”, he was looking at me so lovingly that I blushed.
“You know? You were right. I was a heartless devil but you… you made me a whole new person Gina. You are the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. You gave me a desire to live… to love -“, he whispered those words sweetly.
“But what did I give you? Nothing but pain and tears. In these past days, I have only been thinking about you. I was waiting for you to come but when you didn’t show up even on the third day, I knew… I knew I had lost… I knew I was not good enough for you… I knew I didn’t deserve you and how could I? How could a monster like me deserve something so innocent… so pure?” His voice was hurting and broken.
Then he leaned forward as he whispered.
“So… I am letting you go Gina”.
What!
My eyes widened as I just stared at him blankly.
His eyes were teary now.
“W… what?” I managed to question. Tears were threatening to come out from the corner of my eyes.
“Ssshh! Don’t cry… don’t cry… you won’t be crying from now on… you won’t be scared of me from now on. You are free Gina, free to live”, a tear trickled down his face.
His expressions were beginning to frighten me.
“W… why?” I whispered.
My voice didn’t seem to emerge from my chest.
“Why?” He laughed sadly.
“Can’t you see? I am nothing but a trash now. I cannot fucking hug you, I cannot touch you the way I want to, I am not going to see you naked and do… do… Oh damn it! You have no idea what I want to do this moment”, he inhaled sharply before continuing again.
“I cannot take you out for shopping, I cannot go on dates with you, I cannot do all the sports I planned to do alongside with you. I cannot even protect you. I just failed, I failed to win your heart, I failed in everything, I am nothing but a burden.
I shoudn’t be born in the first place. This world… this world would definitely been a better place without me” concluded.
He cupped my face in his right hand.
“Go pack your things Gina. Live your life to the fullest, my men will escort you to your aunt Christa”, he kissed my forehead as he slowly lowered his hands throwing his head back on the chair.
Then he closed his eyes tightly waiting for me to leave. I was crying looking at his face still sitting on his lap.
He was shutting his eyes tightly like a child, he seemed scared. His hands were trembling.
Now, I could finally understand him. I could feel his intense love for me. I could see the fear he had been hiding all this time.
Not only his, I could hear my heart dropping down when he asked me to leave. I could feel my heart beat getting slower at the thought of getting apart from him. I have feelings for him, can I really do this?
I leaned forward on his face and in the next moment, I closed my eyes and placed my lips on his, and I kissed him.
“How about our child?” I asked.
He opened his eyes and kept them widened, looking speechless for some seconds.
“I’m gonna send more money into your account. You can do whatever you please with it, abort it or keep it. It’s fine with me if you choose to abort”, he replied creasing my stomach.
What! Abort?
God! I was so sad, the tears in my eyes finally rolled down my face, his eyes were also red.
I couldn’t believe Greg asked me to abort our child. My melancholy suddenly turned to anger and hatred for Greg, why would he say we should do a D&C?
“I hate you Greg! I hate you! I hate you!!” I bursted into tears hitting his chest as I stood up and ran out of the room.
It really hurt. Fate is so cruel.
As soon as I ran out, I bumped into Clemson and ma’am Diana.