Chapter 38
Harley Quinn
It take me much persuasion to bring Nelson back here. I don’t want Jay to hurt him, because it was obviously written on his face that Nelson is not welcomed in the house.
“Cassie!” Richmond calls my name surprisingly as soon as he open the door. He look pale and seem like he hasn’t been fine for the past weeks. Seeing him in this state, for some reason, breaks my heart and makes me feel guilty. Considering what he had been through in the past and how he had found comfort in me, I feel like a monster for leaving him just like that. But it was never my fault, right? He fell in love with the wrong woman and now he has to deal with the pain, but what hurts most is the little boy that have seen me like his own mom and is ready to do anything to be with me. For a little boy to carry my picture around in search of me, that shows how desperate he is to see me. That shows that he had really missed me and wants me to come back. But too bad that’ll never happen.
“Daddy! Mommy is back,” Nelson rush to hug him happily, but his gaze never left mine as he stares back at me. He has so many unanswered questions on his face.
“Nelson, go inside. I want to speak to mommy,” He says to Nelson, who take a glance at me before he finally walk away. He stares at his son until he’s out of sight, maybe to make sure that he won’t be hearing what he has to tell me.
“What are you doing here?” He asks me with so much anger on his face as he glares at me. I gulp down nothing nervously, I have never seen him like this.
“Nelson… he sneaked out of the house to come find me, so I brought him back,” I reply him, trying not to sound nervous. He scoff and tilt his head sideways before turning his full attention to me.
“Who are you, really? A spy that was sent by one of my enemies to take me down, isn’t it?” His question hits me so hard and take me by surprise and my heart skip as we both stare at each other intently, his eyes demanding an answer from mine. Please, don’t tell me he found out about this. Please tell me that it’s just his suspicion.
“Wh… what are you talking about?” I try not to sound nervous, as my heart is already racing so fast.
“Why did you leave? Is that how much I worth to you? You got me all worried here and you didn’t even care how Nelson would feel. Do you know the pain he has been through all these months that you left us? Do you know the pain you made me go through, trying to get over the pain? Yes, I was a fool to have fallen in love with a stranger without knowing anything about you, I was a fool to let my heart get captured by you, without knowing your identity, but I couldn’t help it. Why did you leave us?” Tears trickle down his cheeks as he stare at me and I gulp down nothing as I stare back at him. I hate to see him like this, it hurts me deeply to see him in so much pain and it hurts to know that I’m the reason why he’s so sad. But then, the painful aspect of it is that I can’t do anything about it.
“Why aren’t you saying anything, huh? Are we never important to you? Do you never cared about us or our feelings? Even if you never cared about mine, how about Nelson?” He questions again as more tears find their way out of his eyes. I just stand staring at him. I don’t know what to say to him, maybe because I have nothing to say, or because I feel too guilty to talk.
“You aren’t gonna say anything, are you? Fine! Now listen to me, I don’t care who you are and I don’t care whoever sent you to come spy on me, but I want you to get this straight… if anything happens to my son, I’ll never forgive you. I don’t ever want to see you anywhere around my son or any of my family members, ever again. Excuse me,” He wipe his tears and with that, he turn around and walk back into the house, slamming the door behind him.
Tears trickle down my cheeks as I stare at the close door. I clench my fists slowly beside me, my heart hurts deeply as I stare into space. This is all my fault, this is the path fate chose for me, and I have to embrace it.
“Daddy let me go! Mommy!” Nelson’s crying voice echo from inside the room and more tears trickle down my cheeks.
“Behave yourself, Nelson. She is not your mom! Your mom is dead!” The pain in his voice hurts me deeply and I fall to my knees. I have hurt this father and son so badly, how will I ever be forgiven.
“Mommy is not dead! She’s out there waiting for me, dad. Mom is not dead, she’s waiting for me,” Nelson cry from inside and the door suddenly burst open. He rush out and jump on me, crying bitterly.
“Mom, please don’t leave me. I promise you, I’ll make you happy. Did dad offend you? I promise to make you happy, don’t listen to him,” He hug me tightly, while crying heavily.
“Get away from her, Nelson,” Richmond pull him away from me forcefully, while the little boy keep struggling to free himself.
“Let me go, dad! Mommy you won’t leave, will you? Please say something,” He yank his dad’s hand away and rush to hug me again, while I just cry bitterly.All text © NôvelD(r)a'ma.Org.
“Mommy please say something…” He tighten his little hands around my neck and sobs.
“Stop this, Nelson! She doesn’t care about you, she doesn’t care about us. She is not your mom, your mom is dea…”
“Stop it, Richmond!” I cut him off and break into tears.
“You’re hurting him…”
“And you’re the one that’s not hurting him? For how long do you plan to lie to him? For how do you want to keep making him believe that you’re his mom, when you know that you’ll never stay by his side forever? Don’t lie to my son, knowing that you’ll always leave him whenever he needs you the most. You know what? I hate you, and don’t you ever show your face here again. Ever again!” He forcefully pull Nelson away from me and walk back into the house, slamming the door hard on my face while I cry out heavily.
With an heavy heart, I turn around to leave but something catch my attention. There’s a necklace on the ground. A familiar one…